Writing Is Like Yoga
Unlike yoga, writing does not come naturally to me. When I first decided I wanted to start blogging, I put it off for an entire year. But just like yoga, the hardest part is starting.
Writing, for me, is complete exposure, vulnerability. An effect that a lot of people find yoga has on them. Not me. I have a body that loves to stretch and bend, naturally flexible. I had to work really really hard at yoga to find strength in my practice, and to finally peel back the layers of ego and really see transformation within.
But writing... Now this is scary stuff. This is communication and expression and reality. An outpouring of whatever I find within, and connecting it to the outside things. But as Brene Brown says in her Ted Talk, “Vulnerability is at the core of genuine human experience”. To be genuine not only with the outside world, but with myself, I need to write, and to practice yoga.
What am I so afraid of? I would describe it as similar to the fear that I feel about meditation and self inquiry. The fear that I won't like what I find within. Or rather that I won't find anything at all, that there's a great vast emptiness inside me with nothing of value to discover.
But once I actually got started writing, and basically gave in to it, I found it so enjoyable that I almost couldn't stop. What I've encountered so far, has usually been completely surprising and rewarding, and not at all scary. Ever met a yoga addict? Or perhaps you are one yourself? And it's once you really get going, that you become more comfortable with it, and it becomes a part of you, and you don't know how you ever lived without it. I often describe the effect of a Bikram yoga class like being a freshly squeezed human, washed, rinsed and wrung out.
It's best not to complicate yoga. It's perfect in it's design to heal the body and mind. When you try too hard, you end up hurting yourself. With writing, I've learned that it's best to keep it simple and to the point. Don't muck it up with too much ego.
And you think you're getting kind of good at it. Then you get some feedback and realise you're really just at the beginning, and you have a lot of fine tuning to do. And the work, and the learning, it never really ends.
But I wouldn't want it to, because the more I learn, the more I like. And peering within, whether it be in a yoga class, or in front of my keyboard, becomes more and more interesting everyday.